Oh shit, that's just so good and so painful all at once and I just don't think I even have the words. I expected that dull ache in my chest that surfaces when I think of the lovely Roman these days but my tears actually caught me by suprise. I think it was the combination of Deniz holding onto these memories but the undeniable presence of the past tense... I have goosebumps... This was beautiful (even though I kind of wish it wasn't, and I hope you know I only mean that in a silly grieving fangirl kind of way). Beautiful. Thank you.