In the midst of this sea and on the edge of this desert.

Title: The Mind Fuck
Author: amoama
Artist: lusaly
Fandom/Genre: Supernatural
Pairing(s): Dean/Castiel (Brief Dean/Balthazar)
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 21,000
Warnings: Sexual situations, brief dub-con, explicit torture, dreamt threesome with girl!Cas, flagrant misuse of one wedding dress and strong language.
Summary: "Since I've been loving you, I'm about to lose my worried mind." Castiel is determined to bring peace and freewill to Heaven but the Winchesters are no longer involved and Cas is taken prisoner by Raphael. In Cas's absence Dean begins to dream of him, his frustration and longing seeping into his dreams. As Cas’s torture becomes worse so do Dean’s dreams until finally Dean realises he must brave Heaven and all the angels to find Cas.
Disclaimer: Nothing owned by me.
Author's Notes: Thank you to spaghettitoes for all her help, but especially for the final part which she really saved. You rock m'dear. Also to lusaly for her awesome artwork, do check it out!

In the light of recent eps this fic really feels like an elegy to a Cas and a Dean who, if not already lost, are in great danger. I hope you will find some old, beloved friends here walking a different, if no less difficult road.

Quotes come from three Led Zeppelin songs, Ramble On, Since I’ve Been Loving You, and Babe, I’m Gonna Leave You. Additional quotes in the play scene come from Oscar Wilde’s The Picture of Dorian Gray. I’ve also quoted Mahmoud Darwish’s incredible opening to his prose poems, Memory for Forgetfulness at the beginning and throughout.

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